Since I’m not able to be in the devotional meeting today (staying home with sick kiddos) I thought I’d blog a little bit about the devotionals. Specifically, week 4: Self-Righteous Eyes.
I’m able to relate to what you wrote, Carolyn, about the “tug of war” with God especially when it comes to answering the questions…it definitely pushes me to the limits of my “comfort zone” to be so introspective.
However, when I was reading “self-righteous” eyes, I had an easy time answering the questions (I don’t think this is a good thing). This is an issue I’ve been struggling with and have been seeking the Lord’s help in battling. Immediately I was reminded of an argument I had with my brother a couple years back. Since we’ve reached adulthood, I rarely have arguments with my siblings; but on this particular trip back home to visit my folks, I accused my brother of doing something which led to an all-out yelling altercation between the two of us. I was certain that I was right and self-righteously told him as much. After fasting and praying about it, the Lord made it very clear to me that regardless of what my brother may or may not have done, my behavior was wrong and that I needed to repent of my self-righteousness and also ask my brother for forgiveness. Humbling myself enough to admit my prideful behavior to God and repent of it was difficult in itself, but having to ask my brother for forgiveness was excrutiating. I was obedient, however, and my brother forgave me and the healing was able to begin. My brother is going through a difficult time in his life and has been for a few years now. He is in need of constant prayer for God’s protection, mercy, and deliverance. I believe that my prayers for him will be answered and have seen some of them answered already. I’m particularly grateful that God made me aware of my self-righteous behavior and didn’t allow me to let it get in the way of being able to have effective prayer and intercession for my brother. I’m also so thankful that our Lord is so merciful and forgiving.